I am looking to get a tattoo on my wrist as i am a suicide survivor , i lost my partner to suicide i want somr?

i lost my partner 5 weeks we were together 12 years , he committed suicide and i want to get a wrist tattoo that symbolises whats happened but something beautiful, i like butterflies/fairies and flowers, but am not sure what to have that symbolises this, i will have to look at it forever so i need something positive.